Being with Kenji was no honeymoon, neither was it a roller coaster. He is so caught up with his business that I feel he wasn’t spending enough time with me. The only time we had were those spent sorting out his documents and accounts together.

Gone were the days whereby he would pick me up from school or work. Sundays were spent at home clearing all his paperwork and backlogs.

To make up for this, he always made it a point to bring me for long trips at least once a year.

14 days out of 365 is no big number.

The relationship got stagnant but his business grew rapidly. Soon, there were no more single dates for us. His friends will be there wherever we were. Movies, dinners, clubbing. They were everywhere. Although having a big group seems fun, but I wish for those quiet moments whereby i can just lay beside him and daydream.

Money were spent carelessly on them. He footed the bills for all that came along with the fun. With me nagging him about the spending as well as the friends that were buzzing around him, strained the relationship further.

Soon, trips were planned without him even discussing or notifying. He would only tell me 1 day before departure. He knew that there is nothing I can do, other than flaring up.

“Do you realise that we are drifting apart? We don’t seem to have that chemistry anymore.”

“Don’t think too much. I know you don’t like me spending too much time with my friends. But I need my space too. I think you should go out and spend some time with your friends as well. There is no need for you to join us all the time.”

“FRIENDS? Because of helping you in your business, i have neglected all friends of mine. Where am I supposed to find 1 now that you don’t wish to have me when you are with your friends?”

“You can always call them up. If 1 of them can’t make it, I am sure that are bound to be others that will be free. Can you not make make a mountain out of a mole hill?”

The door slammed shut right at my face.

Days without Kenji increased. Missed calls went unreturned. Deep down, I know its time I let go but yet my heart is not ringing the same tone. Seeing me this way, Kenji was sure that I would never leave him.

He never had associates that were girls so there never were thoughts of him betraying me. I managed to convince myself, like what all his friends were telling me, that I was too sticky. I should give him his freedom.  

I stop calling him all the time, stop myself from asking him out unless if he wants to, stop going over to his place unless if its Sunday.

He started getting calls at the most usually time. Otherwise, he would walk away whenever a private number calls.

“Hey, your birthday is this coming Saturday. How do you want to spend it? I will be going to Bangkok with the boys on Wednesday. Can you come over yourself on Saturday.”

I was ecstatic. I thought he would have forgot all about it.

“Ok. I will buy the tickets and can you please extend the hotels rooms you guys are staying.”

“No need to extend. I am sure we can get the rooms when you arrive. We can go choose the rooms there and then. “

“What if the rooms are fully booked. We will be stranded.”

“Can you stop being paranoid?”

There he goes again. Walking away whenever we have a conversation gone wrong.